A word about depression

I woke up this morning from nightmares. As I lay there watching the shadows cast by the labyrinth-handsfan and what little light shone under the door, I came to a revelation. I have been depressed.

I have anxiety depression. I know this. It is a fact of life. I take a little blue pill every morning after breakfast to help with it. Yet I still fall into that quagmire of dingy gray without realizing it. The world loses color, I sleep too much, and everyday activities take a herculean amount of effort.

Looking back I can kind of notice where the slide began this time. The multiple days of rain haven’t help matters either. Neither has sinus trouble and a sick child.

The ascent out of my gray world began yesterday when I sat on the porch for an hour and read the newspaper. (You would think that reading tales of drug dealers and politicians would make me more depressed.) That one hour out of the house and in the sunshine did something.

I am sure it had something to do with vitamin levels and such. But I prefer to think that a bit of that sunlight managed to trickle down to me where I was trapped and wrapped in gray bindings. That while I slept last night I was able to use that trickle of sunlight as a rope to climb up.

I am not completely out of the hole yet but I can see top. And from where I am in my climb I can look back on that dingy gray world and say: Oh. I was depressed. 

 

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A blog to check out

I met Ernest Dempsey at Liberty con and have been following his blog. I thought I would share this post. http://ernestdempsey.net/lost-socks/

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A good book

A couple of weeks ago I went to LibertyCon in Chattanooga, TN. While there I picked up a copy of Witchfinder by Sarah A. Hoyt. It takes place in her Magical Empires world and I absolutely loved it.

It has been a while since I read a book I just couldn’t put down. (I think the last one was Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman.) In fact, I got so engrossed in Witchfinder that I smuggled it to work with me and got a stern talking to for reading on the clock.

It was one of those days where I was stuck behind the counter. My boss will probably end up borrowing the book from me later though. Some how I don’t think that that was what the author meant when she signed my book and wrote “Sometimes you have to break the law.”

If you like fantasy novels, if you like magic, and if you like regency era fiction this is a book you really need to check out.

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Hello Monday my old friend

I haven’t slept. I spent the night chain watching Harry Potter movies with my 12yr old daughter. It is her first time watching them and mine too in some cases.  I read all of the books as they came out, (I worked in a bookstore at the time and it was very hard not to.) but I never got around to watching all of the movies.

My mom loved both the books and the movies and has all of both versions. We borrowed the movies from her and my kiddo is now expressing interest in the books as well.  We still have the last two movies to go, so we will see if she changes her mind.

Regardless, I will probably pick the first book in the Harry Potter series as our “chapter a night” bed time read after we finish the book we are on.  Both of my kids read well above their grade levels but there is just something about snuggling up together and sharing a book. I don’t have to read to them but I sure do enjoy it.

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Happy 4th of July!

4th julyHappy Independence day! As those of us in the good ole U.S.A celebrate our freedoms, I would like to ask that we also consider those who have sacrificed in order to protect those freedoms.  The people who fought, the people who died, the people who served in peace time, and the people who carry scars from battle that aren’t immediately visible.happy-4th-of-july-wallpapers-festivals-and-events

PTSD is a very real thing that many of our service people deal with on an everyday basis. Loud noises, such as fireworks, can trigger serious symptoms and leave those brave people fighting another battle within themselves.  This 4th of July as we gather for back yard cookouts and toast our freedoms, remember the combat veterans.

Instead of shooting off a bunch of loud fireworks in your neighborhood, consider taking in a professional show instead or limiting the length of your celebrations.  Maybe choose more sparklers than cherry bombs. Veterans fought for our peace of mind, the least we can do is be considerate of theirs.

 

 

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Balloons, Panels, and Books

panel2My Saturday at LibertyCon is winding down I can’t help but be satisfied. I got the chance to meet and talk to some talented writers, I bought a ton of books, and got a few new short story ideas sketched out.  Most recently I went to the book release party for Deadly Curiosities by Gail Z. Martin.

Truthfully, I had not heard of Gail Z. Martin before this convention.  I am incredibly glad I’ve been introduced to her now and I very much look forward to reading her new book.  It sounds like it is really going to be a good one. (It’s urban fantasy just in case anyone was wondering.)  She has some short stories in the same setting. (And quite a few other books as well.)

I got some good tips on writing from Louise Herring-Jones and Gail.  There were suggestions that I reverse plot my space opera and maybe take a look at my point of view. I think that maybe just what I need in order to straighten out some of the problems.

Earlier today I went to some great panels and listened to Scott W. Baker, Timothy Zahn, panelLouise Herring-Jones, Gail Z. Martin, Dan Hoyt, Travis Taylor, John Ringo, and many others. I have books signed by Sarah A. Hoyt, Jason Cordova, Eric S. Brown, and D.B. Jackson.

This has been a great convention and just what I needed. It has been a learning experience, a mini vacation, and a sort of family reunion all rolled into one.  Or rather, a Friendly reunion.  I’ve seen friends I usually only see once a year like Ray, Stephanie Osborn, Dan and Lindsey Hollifield, and Scott W. Baker.

doc osbornDaryl “Doc” Osborn also made me a “subtle” balloon hat when we watched his Balloons of Doom act.  Bright orange, red, pink and yellow; it is almost as tall as I am with a red heart perched at the top. I had to bend it over to enter and exit buildings and the elevator had me worried.  He also turned one of the hotel golf carts into a bat mobile using balloons.

LibertyCon 27 has been awesome but now it is after midnight and I need to sleep. Good night.

 

 

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And The Con Goes On

I typically only post on Monday but since my last couple of posts have been rather negative I thought I would do one more for this week to see if I can turn that around.  I am LibertyCon 27.  I have all the pillows from my hotel bed stacked behind me in order to keep me up right long enough to write this.

I am tired, (I’ve been awake for about 30 hours or so now) but I have had a good day. I got to talk to a great number of talented writers, bought a stack of new books, and I’ve spent the day with my daughter. (This is her first LibertyCon) Being a member of the walking dead is a small price to pay for all of that.

If I look out my window I can see the pool and the con goer crowded around it.  I don’t have to look in order to hear the cheerful chatting of like minded individuals having a good time.  As I lay here and think of sleep, the unintelligible murmur of happy voices make me smile. I feel content and I think I will sleep well tonight. I even got the bare bones of a new story down today while my daughter was in the pool. :)

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