I know, long time no post. I did mention back in August (I think) that I wouldn’t be posting
as often because of school and such. Life is still as crazy and busy as ever. However, I thought I would take a moment to let everyone know what I am working on. It is for school but I think it will have added benefits by the time I am done.
I didn’t come to that conclusion by myself, mind you. It took a comment from one of my classmates to make me see the potential. Thanks again Emily.
“…You could add links to your possible ideas and rough drafts so others can get an idea of your writing style and interests!” I read this will drinking coffee
and the thoughts exploded in my brain like Christmas lights coming to life. I’ve had some complaints here and there that I don’t write enough about my writing. There are several reasons for that.
One is because I often use this blog to empty my brain of all the other things that get in the way when I try to write. It is my freedom space. All of those thoughts or ideas that have to go some place usually go here, with exceptions of course. This blog is me talking to myself in a crowded room. Yet, no one looks at me funny because if you are reading this you came here to see me talk to myself.
Now I have to create a new blog for school. I wasn’t really looking forward to it. I mean I have this one, amazon, twitter, a facebook page, and I have a web page. I don’t update those anywhere near often enough. Why would I want to add one more to the mix? Why would I want to do all of that work for just a grade?
Then Emily commented on my post in our discussion area, (I am going to MTSU online) and it was like the scene from Dead Poet’s Society when Robin Williams stands on his desk to gain a different point of view. My eyes were opened to the possibilities. I have needed a place to stash links to things I find online that I want to revisit. I am focusing on History and Literature at school, which is pretty much regular life for a grade and a bit more structured.
(I seriously should get my kids to guest post about how many museums and historical sites I drag them to and the documentaries we watch.)
So, coming soon: Back Stories: History in Fiction. It will be on blog spot because I like to spread myself around like that and it is something new to poke at. I will post a link here when I get it up and running.
I’ve been stressed. I woke up this morning knowing I have to go to work, I have to pay the electric bill, I have to get the kids up, feed them, and make them do their school work. I have to write the other four or five pages of an essay that is due by midnight and I have to learn enough about the Philippine War in order to write a paper about it as well. That one may also be due today. I honestly can’t remember. I am so far behind in my other two classes that I am afraid to look at the due dates.
So my life has been one massive “I have to”. I woke up this morning and realised I can’t remember the last time I read a book for enjoyment. For me, that is like waking up not remembering when I breathed last. Before school started I would read several books a week.
As I lay in bed watching the ceiling fan, I did a playback of this week. It has been extra crummy. I was late to work yesterday. Wednesday a customer got me mad enough that I walked around the grocery store for awhile before coming home. (I had to do grocery shopping anyway.) The list goes on, but this moment of introspection made me realise something. I haven’t had many moments of introspection lately either and that is something I need.
I need to decompress. I need a few moments of silence away from computers and textbooks. Watching a thirty-minute tv show or going to local county fair may be fun, but they aren’t what I am needing. I think I am taking time out doing those things but really I am just providing more for my over-stimulated brain to take in.
What I really need is a few moments with a cup of tea on the front porch watching the leaves change. I need a hot bath to soak in and to just be. I need a walk in the woods. I need to let my brain download and file away all the things that are daily crammed into it.
If I take that time everything else usually falls into place a lot easier.
It seems like I haven’t written anything “useful” here in a while. Mostly my blog post tend to be random and about whatever is on my mind at the time. There is actually a reason for that. I sometimes (Okay a lot of the time) use this blog as a free writing, where I get all the jumble of stuff running around in my head down in print. Then, when I am done, I can get to work writing on the stuff I am supposed to be working on.
Often when I sit down to write I get in my own way. I stare at the blank screen and think: this is hard, I don’t feel good, I don’t wanna write this scene, I don’t know what happens next, I don’t wanna think….ect. In short, I can be pretty whiny. This is why I typically have a notebook or a journal to write in as well. I whine in it for a little while and then I feel better and can get to work. Unfortunately, my hands do not take to handwriting for long periods of time without causing me lots of unwanted pain.
There are also memories or ideas that I just can’t shake loose sometimes too, like the thought of my grandmother’s biscuits and gravy. I currently have an Urban Fantasy story in the works and biscuits and gravy may be nice, but they really don’t fit in a car chase. (Not in a serious car chase at any rate.) So I wrote about them here. If I ever need to bring to mind a country breakfast cooked on an old cast iron stove, I can glance back at my blog post from a few days ago.
It is good to have some place to write the random down. I don’t always write it as a blog post. In fact most of the time I don’t. But being a writer means having ideas floating around in your head and sometimes they can get in the way. So, you need to have a place to put them until you need them. It can be in a notebook, journal, scrapbook, three ring binder, or a folder on your computer. Heck, you can write it down on scraps of napkin and stuff it into a plastic bag if that’s what works. (A little weird maybe, but if it works I won’t question it….much…) The point is if you are having trouble writing maybe you need to clear some of the random thoughts away first.