Sometimes life moves so fast it feels as if you are going down hill on a runaway train. I keep thinking things are going to mellow out. My kids started back to school last week. I am still waiting for the newness to turn into routine. I need it to soon because next week I start back to school for the first time in years.
How am I supposed to toss another ball into the air when I am not certain that I can juggle what I have? Ready or not, my time in training at work will be over Thursday and I get to see if I can fend for myself in the wild…er I mean call center. (The wild would probably be easier.)
My new job will depend on what team I am picked for. Some people already know which teams they will be on. I don’t yet. It kind of feels like I am back in middle school; the short, glasses wearing asthmatic everyone picked last.
I still feel like I am faking my way through knowing what I am doing. I do my best and make my best guesses but I’ve had a few moments where I’ve been pulled aside and had my mistakes pointed out. It isn’t malicious. I am glad they let me know. How else am I to learn?
It’s just that I have spent a long time more or less knowing how to do my job. This however, is all new and there is so much to absorb. Going in I did not realize it was going to be such an information dump. I worry that I am not up to the challenge.
So recap: The kids are back in school. New work responsibilities start Thursday. ( I can’t even prepare because I don’t know what they will be.) Monday my classes start. The following Monday my schedule work changes.
If I can’t manage to juggle all of these responsibility balls, then I may run away and join the circus. Surely physical objects would be easier.