I didn’t post on Monday. I meant to. I even had the whole thing written out on paper. I just never got the chance to transfer it from the paper to my computer. I could come up with a dozen excuse as to why not, but to be honest I chose sleep over writing. Sometimes that happens. (It has to or at some point you become a danger to yourself and others.)
Working third shift, as a single parent, with two elementary school aged children, and trying to give a writing career a go is hard. Doing all of that with two sick elementary school aged children, plus fighting off a cold/allergies-of-doom is nigh impossible. Thank God for my mom or I don’t think I would have survived this past week.
Also with the threat of NaNoWriMo on the horizon, I have been striving to reorganize a few things. If I am having trouble just getting through the day with all of my obligations now, then writing a 50,000 word book in 30 days will not happen. (And giving up NaNo is not an option. As crazy as it sounds, it’s something I really look forward to. I can write a book, just for me, and it doesn’t have to be good. Think of it as the literary equivalent of screaming into a pillow.)
I’ve needed to take a look at my plate and push a few things around for awhile now but I am one of those people that say “no, I can do it” even when it is obvious that I am trying to fight an fully armored charging army, by myself with a toothpick. (My friends have called me on this many many times.) I think it is a family trait. My brother and my parents do the same thing.
I was on a friend’s street team. (Which is a group of people that work together to help an author promote their books.) I still respect her. I still greatly enjoy her books and will throw it a plug here or there when I can, but it isn’t something I can really focus on at the moment. Not with everything else. I suffer guilt for giving it up, but at the same time I know it was the right thing to do. (And fortunately she is one of those gracious people that understands.)
Also with cold and flu season starting up, work has gotten a lot more hectic. Saturday, judging from the people at our pharmacy at 2am, you would have thought the ER had a two for one special going on.
I probably will still have to do some more shifting of all my obligations, but right now the portions on my plate look a lot better than they did. During November, if blog post dwindle back to twice a month, don’t worry it is only temporary. My Monday schedule of posting will remain the same, it just may not be every week.
“Our Heart’s there to conquer the world, but we’re only human beings.” -Aaron Rudolph Flinchum