I stumbled to the shower to wash away lingering unease and then made for the kitchen and a hot cuppa. Finally awake-ish, I turned on the local weather to find out what season it was going to be today. (A legitimate question. Last week I couldn’t tell the falling tree blossoms from the falling snow.) Turns out today it is going to be Summer. The temp is supposed to be in the upper 70’s.
I laid clothes out for the kids, packed lunches, then went to awaken my sleeping angels. (They don’t always remain angels after I wake them up.) We had cinnamon toast for breakfast. While they ate I took the trash down to the curb then promptly had an asthma attack once I was back inside. This caused a major problem.
I had my fast acting inhaler but if I used it I knew an anxiety attack would follow closely after. The inhaler increases a persons heart rate even as it allows them to breath. I had already had caffeine and lets not forget the nightmares that disturbed my slumber.
Morning + Caffeine = Awake and functional
Caffeine + Asthma inhaler = anxiety
And because I apparently like to cause myself unnecessary stress:
Nightmares + Caffeine + Asthma inhaler + Grocery Store after taking kids to school = Ohmygodjustbreathejustbreatheyou’realmosthome.
I am better now. I am also exhausted. I had big plans for getting stuff accomplished today. I am not sure how much of that is going to happen now. I did manage to work off my anxiety by washing a load of clothes, a sink full of dishes, and cleaning out the litter box, so that’s something.
Now I am just going to make myself a nice decaffeinated cup of tea and read a book for a bit. Maybe later I will feel up to taking the computer onto the front porch to enjoy the sun and work on my book.