I usually post what is on my mind here, though sometimes I hesitate. Today what is on my mind is the balance of my bank account. I hesitate to write about it because it is so low and I worry what people may think. I mean I know it is low and how it got that low and I am not really worried beyond making sure I have enough gas in the car to make it to Friday. If worse comes to worse I can always borrow from my kids. (Yes it is robbing piggy banks but I always pay them back with interest.)
My night/day job doesn’t really pay a ton, but it is enough to get by. I have had friends try to convince me to find a different job, maybe one that pays more and that is a little safer. I always brush them off because I don’t think they really understand where I am coming from.
Nothing against them. They love and worry about me and I get that. However, their lives run differently than mine. The friends that suggest this are happily married with two incomes and two people to pull kid duty. I just have me. My ex-husband and I are on good terms, and he loves his kids, but it is still just me day in and day out when it all comes down to it. I don’t know what I would do with out my mom to baby sit while I work.
True I work nights. True it is some what dangerous, but I don’t see it as more dangerous than working elsewhere. Also I get every other week off to be home, to help at school, to work on my writing. (Which is what I love to do anyway.) I am here when my kids get home from school. I eat dinner with them and help them with their homework. I sleep while they are at school and work while they are asleep. I am here to pick them up if they get sick or to go to school functions when they need me. (Even if it means giving up sleep.)
So yeah, my job doesn’t pay great and I am just scraping by, but the benefits out way the money. The money problem will be helped by getting stuff written and published. Then I will be getting paid from both jobs. Or at least that is what I keep telling myself and those that worry.